“theres nothing more unattractive than taking drugs?”- a tweet I saw by a young girl who regularly goes drinking using fake ID.
But underage drinking is completely okay?
I was a born alcoholic. Even before I was drinking I was an alcoholic. Its the thought process that causes the disease not necessarily how much you drink. I thought it was cool and I thought I needed it. I didn’t (and don’t) care about the damage it does I just wanted to have a good night. The first time I drank I was 14 and I mixed vodka with gin and consistently took shots until I passed out. I remember making it to double figured of shots. I was alone in my room and I was happy.
Ive never been one to have a drink or two, I get shit faced. I get to a party and freak out about how many people there are (sometimes before the party) and down some vodka. I feel better after that. I don’t always enjoy drunk me, I’m clingy, annoying, loud. I rely on others to get me home or get me water when its my own fault I got into a state. But I like feeling everything and nothing all at once. I like being the life of the party and talking to everyone.
I’ve never had an issue with drugs though. I thought smoking was disgusting at a young age but by 13 had tried a good few cigarettes and I’m now a smoker. Were all going to die anyways. I don’t want to smoke forever but it helps for now. Weed was the next progression. I tried it at a gig, then at another, then in Africa and after that I began to smoke it regularly. I don’t feel too much from it its just a nice pass time. It calms me down and its an easy social activity.
However my partners a stoner. He’s recently began smoking it most days and it bothers me a little. I don’t mind it as an occasional pass time but I’m seeing all his fags turn to joints worries me. I know its not overly bad for you but its the mental effect. I want him to be happy without it. Getting high used to be a thing to do like “lets go get high today” whereas now theres no question about wether he’s high or not.
Any drugs above that I have a very uneasy relationship with. I’ve taken a few and seen others take a lot. I don’t mind them occasionally, very occasionally. I get scared of others taking them especially if I’m not there. When I’m there I feel like I can help and I don’t feel like I’m missing out or that things are going on without me. When I’m gone though I can’t help but worry and think what on earth is going on. its fear of the unknown.
However I do feel that its strange that drugs have SUCH a bad rep when alcohol doesn’t. Ive seen a lot more people in a state because of alcohol than drugs. More people getting their stomachs pumped than overdosing on drugs. Taking a line is disgusting but taking a shot isn’t? Its all wrong, ones just more socially accepted. throwing up just makes you a lightweight and people laugh a bit when in reality your bodies rejecting you. Whereas you get a bit emotional after taking drugs and everyone is near to help you.
But okay, it is illegal. But so is underage drinking? And that is the most glamourised activity for minors.
Underage drinking isn’t a quiet subject but intact its not really a subject its the norm. No-one says “oh they’re underage”. theres no thought about it, they drink.
Im not saying drugs are good and alcohol is bad. Their both bad. What I’m saying is society has a very different views on two bad coping habits. I have a lot of views on them and they’re constantly developing at the minute.